Posted in Uncategorized

An Inevitable Change

Welp. I knew this was coming. I tried to fight it, but in the end I realize it’s no use.

What am I talking about?

Simply put, I can’t keep this blog focused to just Autism-related posts. The reason for this is that I have so many other aspects of myself that impact my life, that singling out only Autism to talk about is near-impossible.

There’s also a major part of my life that keeps getting bigger that I want to talk about, but it’s not Autism-related, and thus if I run an Autism-only blog, I’ll just get even more stuck than I currently am.

So, I’m freeing myself of the box I put myself in. Going forward, this blog will be dedicated to anything I want/need to talk about.

I’m still keeping the name though, because puns are awesome. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Thanks in advance for understanding.

Peace Out and Blessed Be,

๐Ÿ’œ Elly

Posted in Mental Health

A Word on Autistic Burnout

That word is ‘irony’.

Because go figure, I finally make an Autism-focused blog, and I don’t even get three proper entries in before I suffer the worst case of Autistic burnout I’ve had in a long time. Hurrah. /sarcasm

So, needless to say, I won’t be posting for a while. I have no way of knowing how long I will be feeling this way, so I may be back soon, or it may be months. Until then, I’m going to be doing my best to recover and focusing on my mental health.

Take care of yourselves, everyone, and if you haven’t heard it yet today, remember;

You Are Loved

You Are Important

You Are Enough

Take care,

๐Ÿ’œElliott

Posted in Ableism, Mental Health

Righteous Fury; Learning to Temper My Rage

Looking back at the failure of my previous blog, I realized that I had a consistent problem; every time I tried to write an entry, it would devolve into a rant. Regardless of my original intention, I would end up spitting venom and getting myself worked up.

I realize that this is largely because of how frustrated I am with things. Now, obviously there are many things to be frustrated by, but for this post I’ll focus on autism and autism-adjacent subjects.

Like many autistic people, I’ve been through hell and back because of the ableist attitudes that permeate society. From being made to feel like I’m ‘too much’, to seeing people say things so disgusting and cruel that I can’t bring myself to repeat them here, I have witnessed and experienced so much cruelty and abuse towards myself and my autistic siblings.

And it makes me furious.

So, whenever I’m given a platform where I’m allowed to talk about the injustices our community faces, I do. But in doing so, I work myself up and trigger myself all over again. I become a ball of rage and spite, and all I can focus on is my own rage (my BPD definitely does not help here, seeing as it acts like fuel to the fire).

But like Razer in Green Lantern the Animated Series, I am trying to learn how to temper and control that rage. Because while righteous fury is most certainly a thing, without the proper guidance and focus, it’s dangerous. Anger can be honed into a powerful tool, but like all tools, that means it can also be a weapon. And unfortunately in my case, that weapon is a double-edged sword.

Because while my outbursts and rage have definitely hurt others, it also hurts me. It exacerbates my already fragile mental health, and it causes me to burn out quickly.

So from this point forward, I pledge to follow in Razer’s footsteps, and work to hone and control my rage, so that I may use it as a tool for good. To use it as a fire to keep myself going as I fight for myself and others.

Autism-related specifically, I intend to use it to help me become the autistic adult I needed when I was younger. To spread awareness and acceptance of the autistic experience in my town, and to help in online spaces as well.

I know it will be hard, but in the end I know I can do it. Because after all:

All Will Be Well

Posted in Life Stuff, Spirituality

Just Another Intro Post

So, here we are again; with me trying to have a blog. I deleted my old one after repeated failed attempts at keeping up with writing entries. I had originally intended to simply give up blogging, but an email I received informing me my blog had been taken off the Actually Autistic Blogs List gave me an idea.

Instead of trying to write about multiple areas of my life, instead I’ll focus all my energy into writing about my autism and everything that comes with being Autistic.

To be honest, I can’t help but feel like that email was a sign. You see, I just finished an art project that will hopefully be displayed at the local museum for a community-wide art show. The subject matter of it is directly related to my autism, although I won’t go into greater detail until after the show. But believe me, I will be posting a photo of it alongside the write-up I did to accompany it.

So of course just as I’m feeling peak autistic, I get that email and it gave me the idea to change things around. So, yeah, here we are! Definitely the Universe telling me something.

I’ve actually been wanting to do more autism-centric things again as well. I’m not on social media much anymore outside of talking with friends and family, so I’ve lost touch with the Autistic Community. Hopefully posting stuff here can fix that.

So, there you have it. Elly’s back and more excited than ever! Looking forward to actually keeping up with things for once. XD